It is friday arvo - and I am ready to drink.
This week has been okay eating wise I got back to 51.4kg but yesterday was spent with the bf so of course we ate... pasta FUCK.
So I am sitting at 51.9 kg atm... I hope to be less tomorrow... I have not eaten today and its 3.30 soon I am meeting a friend and will sip vodka.
I don't usually gain from alcohol if I don't follow it up with a late night snack sooo today is strictly liquids
I have had 2 coffees and I am on to a tea now.
I need to be thin for next weeks photo shoot... 50kg at least!!
I will update progress... if any later
until then skinny love and thinspo.. my fat arse needs it!
xx Pix
M.I.A - yep me.
Gosh since my last post I have lost gained lost gained like a yoyo.
I am at a high weight at the moment and I am determined to lose 3kg in two weeks for a photo shoot I am doing.. the plan - clean eating lots of coffee. tea. water.
Things have been all over the place eating wise. I have done a bit of exercise daily though which I feel good about and must keep this up.
I have just been working and studying.
On the working note the most awkward convo was struck by my boss (B) who I haven't ever worked with but she is a family friend of mom and dad... it is along the lines of...
B: "did you want a lunch break?"
Me: "uhm I dont know nah I'm ok for now"
B: "did you want a coffee I have some?"
ME: "nah its ok I didnt bring sugarines"
B: "smiles ..... I have some.... do you usually eat?"
ME: "like how do you mean'
B: "breakfast?"
ME: "no"
B:"lunch?"
ME: "sometimes... when I am hungry"
B: "dinner... not really?"
"soo you're like your mom was then? (anorexic?).... I used to be like that... 28kg admitted a few times if there's one thing I could say is that it isn't a good lifestyle in fact it is shit... I see people come in here and they are big but I think they are probably happier inside and out than I will ever be... I am still not right but I try"
(I knew this as mom mentioned it about her)
---- I was stumped ---
ME: "is it that obvious?"
"B: yep you can tell you are tiny and you have patterns".
--- customers approach convo ends no more talk----
it was weird. I was not angry... I know she understood and I understood.. if anything it made me feel better as I was feeling my fattest in a long time and someone still knew...
I don't know what to think of the convo - it was awkward but in a way comforting
an AHA moment
xo Pixie
